After Much Prayer

I started this blog just a little over a year ago because that is what God asked me to do. However, I hadn't figured out what I was suppose to blog about. So after much prayer I think I have finally figured it out. But first a little background information for those who don't know me.

I have been married for ten years to my wonderful husband who I will lovingly refer to as 'The Husband.' I have a sassy and very energetic daughter who we lovingly call 'Sass.' She is truly a miracle and a blessing from God. I live an ordinary blessed life by any means and want to share how God can work in anyone's life if you let Him in. My prayer for this blog is that it will be seasoned with salt opening up doors for His message in your life. (Col 4:2-6)

So why am I blogging? The last few years I have struggled with fertility. There, I finally said it. I also struggle with brain fog, depression and lack of energy. The Husband and I always said if God wants us to have more children He will bless us with more. I cried and questioned Him daily. I resented anyone who asked me if I wanted more children or when we would have another child. The worst was being told "oh, well she's an only child." In my mind I knew they did not mean harm with their questions or words, but my heart ached each time because it just reminded me that I did want more children but it hadn't happened. It wasn't until other symptoms with my menstrual cycle began to manifest that I began to seek medical answers. After many blood tests, ultrasounds, and possible surgery was I finally diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome or PCOS. Finally having a diagnosis brought clarity. I now know that my brain fog, lack of energy and my bouts with depression were due to this syndrome. Most importantly, I now know why I haven't been able to get pregnant and that Sass is a miracle in the midst of my ordinary life.

As I navigate through this new journey, my main goal is to learn more about this syndrome and to bring awareness to it. Many women go undiagnosed, which can lead to Type 2 diabetes, heart disease, endometrial cancer, fat accumulation on the liver, and infertility. There is hope though. Management of the syndrome is simple with diet and exercise. But when the syndrome causes lack of energy and depression, it seems daunting. With God's help and the support of my family, I know I can manage this.